So I'm fasting. This is my second full day without food, just water and teas. I feel good, though I do occassionally get a near fast breaking urge to go slide a barrage of bolli (plural of bollus, right) down my throat.
The reason behind fasting is this: I want understanding of my mind, digestive system, my emotions, and all the important stuff in the background that that is the first few layers of. I also want a taste of the edge that comes with willful self depravation.
Hopefully I'll get some balance from this, which may yield a healthier dose of self-control over my eating habits than I've manifested in the past. Some personal information to put this in perspective: I was once anorexic and bulemic, weighing 159 lbs (I now weigh somewhere around 215) and I've also been at times really out of touch with what food is best used for. That second part's my way of saying that sometimes I've sat down and eat until my considerable frame was so full of energy-dense food it would well up out of my throat of its own accord.
SORRY, MAYBE A BIT TOO PERSONAL BUT WHATEVER. JUST AIRING THAT SHIT OUT
hmmm... if you think it will help, please keep me your thoughts with a kindness, that i'll sourt my shit out.